People Think I’m Stubborn, Picky, Overly Particular — Here’s the Truth Behind It

People often look at me and say I’m stubborn.

Picky.

Overly particular.

Someone who needs everything a certain way.

But the truth is — this isn’t attitude. It’s not show. It’s not ego.

It’s something that has been a part of me since childhood, shaped by experiences very few people know about.

Where It All Began

Ever since I was a child, I have been extremely disciplined about hygiene and doing things properly. Even while eating with my hand, I had a very clear boundary. If the food crossed my middle phalanx and touched the proximal phalanx, I would immediately stop eating. I would get up, wash my hands, come back, and continue.

To me, it wasn’t drama. It wasn’t stubbornness. It was discomfort — a genuine feeling of being unhygienic.

But as a child, nobody understood this.

When Cleanliness Was Mistaken for “Nakhre”

Instead of seeing it as discipline or hygiene, my parents thought I was being difficult.

They scolded me.

Sometimes even beat me.

Yes — I got beaten up for eating food “the wrong way.”

They tried to fix me by giving me a spoon. But I still struggled. I didn’t know I had to lift my hand along with the spoon. I would lift only the spoon, so the food would slide back and touch my hand anyway. And again, I would go wash my hands. And again, I would be scolded.

What people today call “picky” was once punished in my childhood.

Growing Up With This Nature

So when people now tell me:

“You’re too particular.”

“You’re too strict.”

“You have too many demands.”

“You’re stubborn.”

They don’t realize this is not something I developed later. This is who I have always been — someone who likes things neat, clean, organized, and done properly.

This Is Me — And It Always Has Been

My nature comes from discipline, not attitude.

From hygiene, not ego.

From childhood experiences, not stubbornness.

So when someone calls me stubborn, picky, or overly particular…

I smile.

Because they have no idea that I once got beaten up simply for wanting to eat cleanly and properly — the same qualities they now misunderstand as “nakhre.”

This is me.

And this is the truth behind why I am the way I am.